Thursday, February 11, 2010

I ♥ Music

So on top of college exam week being over and making all A's, several new things musically have come up.

I really wanted to talk about this a few months ago but felt it better to wait. I'm glad I did. One of the main reasons I started going to the BCM was because of a series of emails I got from the BCM director. He was looking for a new worship leader. I was reluctant to step up because I figured there were much more talented kids (actually, I knew for certain there were much more talented kids there). But after the third email, I replied back and told him I'd be willing to play guitar, but that when it came to leading worship, I wasn't going to be able to do that. Mom and I discussed this, and in light of the fact that God has been calling me to really step out in faith lately and that that includes FULLY stepping into my calling, I emailed Damon back and said, "Hey, alright, I'll lead worship too if you still need it." So we got to talking about it. And while I'm not actually going to be leading worship here at the BCM for this semester, I will be on an outreach team that leads worship at different Baptist churches and events in the area. I can not tell you how excited I am about this... I love music, I love the idea of getting to lead worship, and I love that I get to spend my life working with music. I mean, how much better can it get? :] Needless to say, I've been playing guitar a lot more lately. My desk is quickly becoming a storage place for worship music. And I'm working on the singing and playing in front of people... but just keep praying that I relax about that. :]

There's still a bigger thing regarding music education/preparation that I'm still waiting for an answer on. I'm certain that there will be a day that I get to talk to you about it, but for now I have to wait. And this waiting sometimes discourages me... Earlier this week, I was talking with my mom and had decided that I was going to apply to a college that I had once told both my parents that I would NEVER attend because I didn't like it. I read up on it and had been praying that if God wanted me to go there that He'd make my heart soft and accepting towards the college... and as I looked at their website, I thought, "Hey, I could do this... it's a good college, full of friendly people, good academics, and I could also have fun here." So, I thought, "Okay, maybe I should just apply." I talked to Mom, and once again, she reminded me that God had asked me to step out in faith and that He had given me these dreams. So, right now, even though I get frustrated sometimes with this wait and all the uncertainty about my future and what will happen, I know I can be secure in the fact that God knows EXACTLY what He's doing, even when it doesn't make sense to me.

And to top all of this off, I found out that Tenth Avenue North is coming out with a new cd. In case you haven't listened to them, their biggest songs are "By Your Side", "Love Is Here", and "Hold My Heart". Another favorite of mine (probably my ABSOLUTE favorite from them) is "Beloved". Both the original and acoustic versions are so intricately beautiful. And the rest of their songs are fantastic worship songs... seriously amazing. I can not WAIT to get my hands on that cd. :]

So tell me, what's something in your life that you've had to wait for with a very rewarding result?

Until the next adventure,
Audra E.

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